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You know you would have thought that I would have learnt by now, but apparently I haven’t. You know that old adage “To Know, To Will, To Dare and To Stay Silent” well yet again, I’ve had a right good slapping by the powers that be for forgetting the last part, I’m pretty good at the Know, Will, Dare bit; but sometimes, less and less now adays I admit, I forget the last one.

Part of that is my desire to see all that is good and trustworthy in people, which of course is totally flawed. Whilst most people do have these traits, often in abundance, each and every person has a private agaenda, and I really don’t care how loudly people try and protest, when that agenda kicks in, no amount of anything will stop them furthering it, which includes (if neccessary) imparting senstive information at the drop of a hat if it is relevant to thier cause.

So what am I talking about, well I spent the weekend with a fellow student, somebody I have known for a good while. I shared something personal and sensitive, next thing I know it’s been reported back to those older and wiser. I do not know what they gained from this trade, and neither do I care, and in the whole scheme of things, who it was reported to was not the end of the world. But it really made me sit up and think about the whole situation. And sadly the conclusion I came to was “Trust no one, after all paranoid magicians live longer”.

I do feel a little let down, but not that much, after all each person has thier own will to follow, and the person in question was just fulfilling thiers, just as I most likely was by unwisely sharing. It did make me wonder about mine though, I really do think that in the very near future I will be branching off on my own at least for a while, it’s time. After all the only person you can truly trust is yourself, the only person who doesn’t have a personal agenda that may conflict with yours is you. Unless your delusional it’s pretty damn hard to lie to yourself for any period of time, and it’s even harder to break your own trust unless again you are a sociopathic muppet.

Anyway, mild melancholy over, in other news, I watched a documentary entitled “Hitler and the Occult” the other night on National Geographic. What a pile of biased, sensationalist, hogwash. It was poorly presented, poorly referenced, with little actual historical or even circumstantial detail to pad it. The narrator did however say “OCCULT” lots of times in a dramatic and sometimes menacing manner, so of course the total lack of substance could be over looked because saying occult lots had to make what little evidence they produced (most of which seemed to infer that publically at least Hilter actually had a decided aversion to anything Occult) seem so much more true, right?

NOT!

It was a waste of 45 minutes of my life, never to be clawed back again, I thoroughly suggest to anybody that might be tempted to watch it on a replay, DONT, go pick your toenails or clean out your ears, or contemplate the color of belly button fluff instead it will be more enlightening and satisfying I assure you.