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Okay slightly bizarre ramblings, but something crossed my mind today whilst chatting to a friend.

I have for best part of a year been slowley dipping my toe into the Enochiana, it happened by accident initially; I had for best of two year been “visited” by a little girl, she often “showed” to me (and for me it is internal, I do not have the sight like some, who have actually seen her dancing around me) at times of high magical stress and/or development.

Eventually I was asked if I knew her name, Doh! slap head moment, it had never occured to me to ask, she was just my little girl. Anyway suitably humbled, I asked and all I got was that song by the 90’s band Ash, “The Girl from Mars”. I eventually asked a friend who has 30+ years of experience in Enochian evocation, and showed them the picture of my little girl I had drawn. They laughed.

Anyway suffice to say I have been slowley developing my contact with others from that realm. I am a scientist my heart so mostly I have gone out of my way to know as little as possible to perform the operation, after all how can you be empirical if you are influenced by others “supposed” experiences. I do rely very heavily on my friend who has been there and done that to ensure that I don’t go screwing myself up, they totally appreciate what I am doing though, so whilst they support me they never give me more advise/information than I need to complete an operation I am compelled to do. I suppose you could call them a mentor, they give me enough work to ensure that I could get into trouble, but not enough that I couldn’t get out of it.

Lol there I go rambling again, so, where was I. Oh yes, so I want to complete a series of scrying sessions, so I was talking to my friend; before I have always scryed and made notes after, or had a dictaphone. This time they suggested that I would need a proper scribe. And this got me thinking.

I have had friends who have employed scribes, totally impartial, unexperienced but willing scribes. And then the poor scribes lives have fallen apart. So it got me wondering how far does the higher realms emmanate when performing such operations? How do you look after your scribe after, and as I said who scribes for the scribe?

Phew what a busy couple of weeks, the workshop went surprisingly well. The path workings in particular threw up some really interesting things. I’ve never been one to hold too much store by all this internal mumbo jumbo, but discussing with the group the imagery that they saw, one thing really struck me. It is possible to access something subliminal.

With the exception of one person, somebody who I have worked with in the past and know the extent of both their practical and academic knowledge, nobody in the group had even a passing understanding of the concept of planetary influences, symbolism or hours. So to approach a deity from this angle was an entirely new concept for them.

One person in particular seemed to tune in particularly well to this way of working and was confident enough to take me to one side after and discuss some of what they had experienced. Without fail the images, symbols, feelings and experiences they gained from the pathworking correlated directly to the particular planetary aspect that the pathworking had been written for.

It’s actually inspired me to look even more closely into this area of work, I am half toying with the idea of setting up a small informal group, perhaps one evening a month who would like to examine the phenomena of pathworking in closer detail. Perhaps taking it in turns to write and lead a working, experiementing with music, sound, smells, symbolism etc.

You know you would have thought that I would have learnt by now, but apparently I haven’t. You know that old adage “To Know, To Will, To Dare and To Stay Silent” well yet again, I’ve had a right good slapping by the powers that be for forgetting the last part, I’m pretty good at the Know, Will, Dare bit; but sometimes, less and less now adays I admit, I forget the last one.

Part of that is my desire to see all that is good and trustworthy in people, which of course is totally flawed. Whilst most people do have these traits, often in abundance, each and every person has a private agaenda, and I really don’t care how loudly people try and protest, when that agenda kicks in, no amount of anything will stop them furthering it, which includes (if neccessary) imparting senstive information at the drop of a hat if it is relevant to thier cause.

So what am I talking about, well I spent the weekend with a fellow student, somebody I have known for a good while. I shared something personal and sensitive, next thing I know it’s been reported back to those older and wiser. I do not know what they gained from this trade, and neither do I care, and in the whole scheme of things, who it was reported to was not the end of the world. But it really made me sit up and think about the whole situation. And sadly the conclusion I came to was “Trust no one, after all paranoid magicians live longer”.

I do feel a little let down, but not that much, after all each person has thier own will to follow, and the person in question was just fulfilling thiers, just as I most likely was by unwisely sharing. It did make me wonder about mine though, I really do think that in the very near future I will be branching off on my own at least for a while, it’s time. After all the only person you can truly trust is yourself, the only person who doesn’t have a personal agenda that may conflict with yours is you. Unless your delusional it’s pretty damn hard to lie to yourself for any period of time, and it’s even harder to break your own trust unless again you are a sociopathic muppet.

Anyway, mild melancholy over, in other news, I watched a documentary entitled “Hitler and the Occult” the other night on National Geographic. What a pile of biased, sensationalist, hogwash. It was poorly presented, poorly referenced, with little actual historical or even circumstantial detail to pad it. The narrator did however say “OCCULT” lots of times in a dramatic and sometimes menacing manner, so of course the total lack of substance could be over looked because saying occult lots had to make what little evidence they produced (most of which seemed to infer that publically at least Hilter actually had a decided aversion to anything Occult) seem so much more true, right?

NOT!

It was a waste of 45 minutes of my life, never to be clawed back again, I thoroughly suggest to anybody that might be tempted to watch it on a replay, DONT, go pick your toenails or clean out your ears, or contemplate the color of belly button fluff instead it will be more enlightening and satisfying I assure you.